Does Anyboby Know????????????

[ladylauraac]

Can anybody tell me if they know how many beats your heart is supposed to beat in one minute?

Mine just had 100 beats in one minute. And I didn't know if that was normal. I can feel it beating without putting my hand on my heart.

Maybe its just part of me wanting to die. or maybe my heart is just broken.:(

[buttons-and-bows]

Hi I think its between 70 to 95 for normal doing nowt rate.

[buttons-and-bows]

And why does part of you want to die hun?

[ladylauraac]

I just feel like giving up. But I know I can't because my two kids need me (I think).
I'm just going through another bad patch, and feeling very down.
.........wonering if it will ever be my turn to be happy. ................wondering why people just keep breaking my heart and letting me down.

[buttons-and-bows]

who's let you down hun?

[madelaine]

The kids DO need you - even if they seem not to.

Oh dear, I'm sorry you feel so down. Yes, it will be your turn to be happy.

[ladylauraac]

My partner...... again.

About this time last year, I found out the he had slept with an old friend. I found this out just after I found out I was pregnant with his son (Wilf). Anyway, he told me that it was a mistake and it is me he loves.
It took me a long time to get over it. (I never really have). But up untill the other day, our relationship was stronger than it had ever been. And we were getting on great. But now I have found out that he has been texting her for the last few months.
This has torn me apart. All the trust I allowed myself to build up has now been crushed again. I just cannot explain how I am feeling.
But the worst thing is that, he swears he was only talking to her. (Which is WAY more than I can handle). He says he doesn't want to loose me, and that he doesn't want this other woman.
But he knew by talking to her again, what it would do to me.
How can somebody love me, and then keep ripping my heart out, and stripping away any amount of confidence I had.
I do know that if he didn't want to be with me, he would just leave. So why does he keep doing this to me.
And why do I still love him so much, and hate him at the same time?????

[shezz]

Do you know what, I just can't understand mens mentality, I'm sorry but I Know that I would feel exactly the same way as you, they honestly just don't seem to understand that something they think is so innocent in there eyes, can feel like a knife going through you,

Sorry I can't advise you cos I blew up about summit that happened not so long ago although in his eyes it wos something innocent and it more than likely wos, but it hurt me, I did'nt stop to think.

and yeah your right you love and hate at the same time.

[buttons-and-bows]

Oh Laura, I thought you where getting on really well, what with starting the driving school and all that. There isn't anything that anyone can say to make you feel better really is there, I wish there was..
big hugs

[buttons-and-bows]

Do you know what, I just can't understand mens mentality, I'm sorry but I Know that I would feel exactly the same way as you, they honestly just don't seem to understand that something they think is so innocent in there eyes, can feel like a knife going through you,

Sorry I can't advise you cos I blew up about summit that happened not so long ago although in his eyes it wos something innocent and it more than likely wos, but it hurt me, I did'nt stop to think.

and yeah your right you love and hate at the same time.
Basicaly some men havent got the brains they were born with, and the love hate thingy is an in built fault in most women.

[ladylauraac]

Thanx both of you. very much.

He says he wants everything to work out with us. And he is hoping that by getting off of the trucks, and doing the driving school, that may make a big difference.
I told him to just pi** off if it wasn't me he wanted. But he wont go.

I just wonder what he's gonna try killing me with next year.

I am starting to become a man hater. Men have always hurt me in more ways than one. And all I want, is to be loved in a proper way.

[stitchysyl]

Basicaly some men havent got the brains they were born with, and the love hate thingy is an in built fault in most women.

You mean they are born with brains...???

[ladylauraac]

Update: I cannot believe whats just happened. The woman that my partner was sha88ing has been to the police. Apparently she is starting court proccedings against me for sending her nasty text messages. .........What???? I am gob smacked....... What a nerve that womans got. SHE was ripping my heart out, and trying to take my partner away from me and our kids. Did she really think I would lay down and take it without telling her what I thought of her.
Bring on the police..............thats what I say!!!!!

[GirlPlanet]

calm down hun spesh after that last post, she'll have to prove the nasty texts so don't worry about it

as for the beats per min, i did my paediatric first aid beginning july and its 80 -100 for a child, so its 60 - 80 beats per min for an adult

[ladylauraac]

She has saved all the test messages,and shown them to the police. But I really dont care. I cant be hurt any more than I already have. I am only posting it on here as I need to get it off my chest. I cant talk to my mum about this one.

[slinkyri]

with your husband being the common link between you I would have thought that the police wouldn't want to get to involved and call it perhaps a domestic? Where are you Honeyant?? This is your forte lol

One thing's for certain Laura - you obviously scared the sh!* out of her :D Good for you!

[ladylauraac]

with your husband being the common link between you I would have thought that the police wouldn't want to get to involved and call it perhaps a domestic? Where are you Honeyant?? This is your forte lol

One thing's for certain Laura - you obviously scared the sh!* out of her :D Good for you!
Yes. and I think I am starting to get stronger. I feel like a bick wall that no one can break down any more. The police would most lightly laugh this case out the window. But my so called partner is panicing. And I just said "I dont give a s**t."